[Mexican1978]

I think my certification is going to be through N.A.S.D.S. That is what my instructer is certified by. He knows im absolutly terrified...in fact for the first 3 dive I held a dive masters hand through the entire dive.

On one of the dives I did not hold any ones hand because I wanted to try and do it my self but this was the dive I got very dizzy and sucked up most of my air, I got down to 200 psi from a 3000 psi tank, we were on our decompression stop though and were almost to the surface. I think though that since they know I am absolutly terrified and have babyed me enough they want me to start being a little more confidant and stop asking someone to go down with me every time. This is a normal thing for me though being scared, I am terrified of my own shadow.

The dives that we are doing are drift dives, and I get afraid I am going to loose the group and the current is going to take me away and I wont be able to find the group again. I heard that our 5th dive is the 80 to 90 foot dive and they take the bouyi down and tie it off to the ship wreck at the bottom and you swim against the current around this ship wreck and you can go in side of it and explore. That to me sounds so advanced. I know a few other girls in my class who have already done it and they said that it really want not that terrifying. I want to learn to scuba dive and its more conquring a fear and learning to have fun and a new hobby if im going to live by the ocean.
I saw the doc about my ears and I had an ear infection and I dove down to 60 feet with this ear infection. I knew I had it too but ignored it because I thought it was all in my head and I was just making it up because I was afraid. Aparently this was not the case and I really was in pain. I think I also tried to force the equlizing too because everyone was going down so fast and I didnt want to hold up my instructor anymore. My ears are clearing up though and I should be able to dive next week...but again, why am I so terrified. I have nightmares! But I want to be able to enjoy it and I really want it to become my new hobby. Anyways thanks for your help!