[Mako]

OK,
I think you will be ok now! You will see once you do a easy dive where you can really enjoy you will get much more confident with your equipment, your buoyancy, and your equalization you will start to enjoy the dive it self then you will forget all the other things because they will be automatic reflexes. It's the same as a new car driver, in the beginning he has to concentrate on so many new things but with time every thing is becoming automatic and reflex... from what I can hear I am sure you will become a good diver. Relax take your time, you have all the time you need. Only on advance diving like drift it's necessary to be quick responding and coordinate with the group. This is why this kind of diving is recommended to be done once you have more experience and all your automatism are well trained... some people need 50 dives, some 100, some even more... but don't worry you will feel it when you are ready... follow your feelings and instinct... if you have a bad feeling before diving don't dive. Also something good, dive regularly it will reduce faster your fear.
I hope to read from you soon with new good experiences in diving on this forum!
I am sure this discussion could help many other divers with some fears... would you accept that I publish this discussion on the forum in order to help everyone? I could remove your name in the signature or even use a different user name. I will not do it without your consent. Just tell me...


Mako